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Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Monday, March 29, 2010
Alarm woke me up around 5:30am this morning.
I was still in the weekend mood, so I thought: "Eh, how come my alarm rang?".
Heeeheee, then I realise it was a school day today.
Went to bathe all that and realise my face super red and hot hot.
Around 6:15am, went down.
To school with Yu Sheng by Bus 53.
Played his iTouch de TapTap game.
Heehee, fun fun!
Walked to school then go in canteen.
Awhile very hot, so we go sit at the quadrangle instead.
Time passes zoom zoom fast, then flag raising already.
After which was reading of newspaper.
First period of lesson was Physics.
Argh, boring as usual.
Next was three periods of Design & Technology.
Mrs Koh asked Shermeen to sit infront, cause she never complete.
LOL, so left Wen Siew and I behind.
We continued our ideation.
I drew one 3D thing, drew until very long.
Because I was trying to show that its hollow inside.
Ate Yu Sheng made de ♥ 爱心面包 for recess. ^-^
Yum Yum!
After recess was Chemistry.
Miss Wee asked if my face was okay or not. Hahha! (:
We learnt the Exothermic & Endothermic thingy.
See, I got listen. :D
After Chemistry was English.
We were all prepared to receive scoldings from Mrs Rajan for the letter writing we did as pair work last Friday.
Because it was badly done. :/
Gotten 12 + 5.5 = 17.5/30 for it.
At least got pass la.
Heeheee.
Oh, and was punished to write 100 times of "as time goes by", 100 times of "is less expensive' and 50 times of "definitely".
I will never forget that AS TIME GOES BY and the spelling of DEFINITELY.
Rawr.
During assembly, our class didn't see the assembly thingy, we all sat at the upper gallery, writing our lines.
After assembly, then we go Door B outside the benches there redo our letter writing.
Finally completed at 3pm.
The wind there was HUGE.
Make my hair fly until don't know like what.
After that went toilet with Yue Yi.
Did my hair then walked out of school.
Yu Sheng waiting for me at the gate. Heeheee. ^-^
He gave me a lip gloss for my dry lips.
Heh, Cherry flavour!
He applied it for me. (:
After that he brought me to the doctor for my that Copper Chloride allergy.
While we were waiting to see doctor, we played the TapTap game again.
2player de. Heeheee.
Awhile then Yong Seng and Wei Zhi appeared. LOL.
Finally my turn go in see doctor le.
Yu Sheng accompanied me in. (:
Told the doctor about the stupid Copper Chloride.
Then she prescribed me a Calamine Lotion for my face and a pill to stop the itch.
The whole consultation was so fast.
After which, went down to the lobby to collect the medicine.
Eeeee, the calamine lotion is that smelly smelly, like paint that one.
I remembered when I was young, I had rashes on my legs, cause I kept scratching.
Then Mum would always force me to apply that.
And I would always run away from that.
To think I have to apply it on my face now. D:
Yu Sheng then sent me home, accompanied by Yong Seng and Wei Zhi.
Home sweet home around 4:30pm I guess.
Anyway, I'm having hiccups now. ._.
CANNOT STOP HICCUPING!
*urp!.... urp!...... urp!* :S
I was still in the weekend mood, so I thought: "Eh, how come my alarm rang?".
Heeeheee, then I realise it was a school day today.
Went to bathe all that and realise my face super red and hot hot.
Around 6:15am, went down.
To school with Yu Sheng by Bus 53.
Played his iTouch de TapTap game.
Heehee, fun fun!
Walked to school then go in canteen.
Awhile very hot, so we go sit at the quadrangle instead.
Time passes zoom zoom fast, then flag raising already.
After which was reading of newspaper.
First period of lesson was Physics.
Argh, boring as usual.
Next was three periods of Design & Technology.
Mrs Koh asked Shermeen to sit infront, cause she never complete.
LOL, so left Wen Siew and I behind.
We continued our ideation.
I drew one 3D thing, drew until very long.
Because I was trying to show that its hollow inside.
Ate Yu Sheng made de ♥ 爱心面包 for recess. ^-^
Yum Yum!
After recess was Chemistry.
Miss Wee asked if my face was okay or not. Hahha! (:
We learnt the Exothermic & Endothermic thingy.
See, I got listen. :D
After Chemistry was English.
We were all prepared to receive scoldings from Mrs Rajan for the letter writing we did as pair work last Friday.
Because it was badly done. :/
Gotten 12 + 5.5 = 17.5/30 for it.
At least got pass la.
Heeheee.
Oh, and was punished to write 100 times of "as time goes by", 100 times of "is less expensive' and 50 times of "definitely".
I will never forget that AS TIME GOES BY and the spelling of DEFINITELY.
Rawr.
During assembly, our class didn't see the assembly thingy, we all sat at the upper gallery, writing our lines.
After assembly, then we go Door B outside the benches there redo our letter writing.
Finally completed at 3pm.
The wind there was HUGE.
Make my hair fly until don't know like what.
After that went toilet with Yue Yi.
Did my hair then walked out of school.
Yu Sheng waiting for me at the gate. Heeheee. ^-^
He gave me a lip gloss for my dry lips.
Heh, Cherry flavour!
He applied it for me. (:
After that he brought me to the doctor for my that Copper Chloride allergy.
While we were waiting to see doctor, we played the TapTap game again.
2player de. Heeheee.
Awhile then Yong Seng and Wei Zhi appeared. LOL.
Finally my turn go in see doctor le.
Yu Sheng accompanied me in. (:
Told the doctor about the stupid Copper Chloride.
Then she prescribed me a Calamine Lotion for my face and a pill to stop the itch.
The whole consultation was so fast.
After which, went down to the lobby to collect the medicine.
Eeeee, the calamine lotion is that smelly smelly, like paint that one.
I remembered when I was young, I had rashes on my legs, cause I kept scratching.
Then Mum would always force me to apply that.
And I would always run away from that.
To think I have to apply it on my face now. D:
Yu Sheng then sent me home, accompanied by Yong Seng and Wei Zhi.
Home sweet home around 4:30pm I guess.
Anyway, I'm having hiccups now. ._.
CANNOT STOP HICCUPING!
*urp!.... urp!...... urp!* :S
Sunday, March 28, 2010
Went for a swim last night together with Sister & Mummy.
It should be considered as soaking instead, because I don't know how to swim. :/
Don't have the courage to try, that's why cannot learn.
In the end, I build up my courage to try.
I tried the one which your head is still above the water, but the second swim I drown already.
Mummy told me to try putting my head into the water then swim.
Was afraid to try cause I was afraid that the water might go in my nose.
Tried once, can already.
Mum asked me to open my eyes when inside the water.
Haha, I scared la, I thought the water will go in or what.
But in the end, It feels alright.
But opening my eyes in the water keep me distracted, cannot swim properly.
Plus, I don't know how to stop swimming unless I reach the border when I can hold on to.
And and, when my head is in the water, of course I cannot breathe right?
So I cannot swim long distance, because I won't be able to breathe.
Tried coming out of the water to breathe, but ended up nose gets water and mouth gulp down lots of water. ._.
So basically I can only swim like 2 or 3 metres facing the borders of the pool. :/
Therefore, conclusion is, I CAN'T SWIM. (:
There's once when I was swimming in the water halfway, I laughed.
LOL.
Ridiculous I know, but I just laughed.
Alot bubbles come out. Hahahhaha!
Because I feel stupid when swimming, I must have looked clumsy from the surrounding people.
Mum says there's one time when I'm struggling to reach the border, she thinks it looked funny. ):
I drowned twice.
But not that serious.
Still managed to save myself. Hahaha.
Mum says that if we panic, we'll drown even more.
I guess that's true.
All the while, we stayed at the corners of the swimming pool.
Cause I wouldn't dare to go to the middle of the pool.
No sense of security.
Its when I'm drowning, I cannot reach out for any borders.
Okay, enough of blabbering moments of my clumsiness and weaknesses.
Goodbye! :D
It should be considered as soaking instead, because I don't know how to swim. :/
Don't have the courage to try, that's why cannot learn.
In the end, I build up my courage to try.
I tried the one which your head is still above the water, but the second swim I drown already.
Mummy told me to try putting my head into the water then swim.
Was afraid to try cause I was afraid that the water might go in my nose.
Tried once, can already.
Mum asked me to open my eyes when inside the water.
Haha, I scared la, I thought the water will go in or what.
But in the end, It feels alright.
But opening my eyes in the water keep me distracted, cannot swim properly.
Plus, I don't know how to stop swimming unless I reach the border when I can hold on to.
And and, when my head is in the water, of course I cannot breathe right?
So I cannot swim long distance, because I won't be able to breathe.
Tried coming out of the water to breathe, but ended up nose gets water and mouth gulp down lots of water. ._.
So basically I can only swim like 2 or 3 metres facing the borders of the pool. :/
Therefore, conclusion is, I CAN'T SWIM. (:
There's once when I was swimming in the water halfway, I laughed.
LOL.
Ridiculous I know, but I just laughed.
Alot bubbles come out. Hahahhaha!
Because I feel stupid when swimming, I must have looked clumsy from the surrounding people.
Mum says there's one time when I'm struggling to reach the border, she thinks it looked funny. ):
I drowned twice.
But not that serious.
Still managed to save myself. Hahaha.
Mum says that if we panic, we'll drown even more.
I guess that's true.
All the while, we stayed at the corners of the swimming pool.
Cause I wouldn't dare to go to the middle of the pool.
No sense of security.
Its when I'm drowning, I cannot reach out for any borders.
Okay, enough of blabbering moments of my clumsiness and weaknesses.
Goodbye! :D
Saturday, March 27, 2010
Hello Readers.
I am RAT RAT.
I'm BACK! :D
Today Mummy keep playing with me.
I very happy!
I even used her phone to Tweet!
Got see or not?
Have right?
Heeeheee. I very clever hor.
I know how to type ley.
Always see Mummy type type, then I learn also.
O.o!
I observe Mummy very long already.
Everytime her phone this thing appear hor, she will very happy de.
Next time I make sure when the ♥ become Rat Rat, she will happy also! :D
Heh heh.
I secretly switch on her computer to use leh.
Don't tell her okay?
PROMISE!!! (:
Heeeeheeeee.
I just now help Ah Ma repair her computer leh.
She gave me Qing Qing! :D
Wo de first kiss. (=^.^=)
Aiyo, I shy liao lah.
*Blush*
Better go first before you all see my face red red.
Heeee.
BYE BYE! :D
~Rat rat.
Friday, March 26, 2010
Remembered I said yesterday during the Chemistry practical, that I accidentaly splashed the clear blue solution on my face around the mouth there?
Well, guess what.
I think I'm allergic to it.
Because, my lips starts becoming dry, and when you pout, the sides all turn white.
And the area around the chin and the cheek below, all itchy itchy, abit red red.
Damn it.
So itchy, but cannot scratch.
I've asked Miss Wee, she said: "Copper chloride. Could be allergic. Wash off frequently. If not ok after days, see doctor."
SAD FACE.
I scared it got worse and like swollen or something.
MY FACE LEH. ):
Booo Hooo Hooo.
I Hate Copper Chloride. T^T
By the way, I saw this just now at White Sands the POLAR cake shop.
You see!!
The second one looks like Rat rat.
Heeeheeee. ^-^
Next time Rat rat brithday can use this for birthday cake.
Hohoho!
Well, guess what.
I think I'm allergic to it.
Because, my lips starts becoming dry, and when you pout, the sides all turn white.
And the area around the chin and the cheek below, all itchy itchy, abit red red.
Damn it.
So itchy, but cannot scratch.
I've asked Miss Wee, she said: "Copper chloride. Could be allergic. Wash off frequently. If not ok after days, see doctor."
SAD FACE.
I scared it got worse and like swollen or something.
MY FACE LEH. ):
Booo Hooo Hooo.
I Hate Copper Chloride. T^T
By the way, I saw this just now at White Sands the POLAR cake shop.
You see!!
The second one looks like Rat rat.
Heeeheeee. ^-^
Next time Rat rat brithday can use this for birthday cake.
Hohoho!
Thursday, March 25, 2010
"There is only one happiness in life, to love and be loved."
School today was SUPER LONG.
Because its a Thursday!
Which means there are all the subjects in the timetable.
English, Mathematics, Combined Science, Humanities, Mother Tongue and D&T. ):
Boring boring boring.
First period was Chemistry.
Today, we had practical!
Guess what.
I accidentaly ate that clear blue solution. ._.
Because I was holding on to it, while talking to Yue Yi.
I don't know what happen that I accidentaly splashed the solution on my face. :/
How stupid was that.
Haha.
English lesson was next.
Got back our report writing.
I got 12/20 for Language and 6.5/10 for content.
Then mrs rajan asked all those who get 5marks and below for content to sit on the floor at the front.
Almost all the people sat on the floor.
Left Irwan, Syafiqah, Tommy, Sean and I.
Hui Ting and Yu Sheng never pass up. LOL.
Then Mrs Rajan began reading Wai Kin's report writing.
Cause he got 2/10 for content.
Wai Kin wrote things like he brainstorm then had a brain wave. ._.
LOL!!!
Hilarious much.
Next was Physics lesson.
Boring as usual.
Recess!
Had my ♥ 爱心面包 again made by Yu Sheng. :D :D :D
Heeeheeee. ^-^
After recess was Social Studies.
As usuals, copy down notes.
Next was Mother Tongue.
Annoyed Shermeen by repeating "Chim Chim-me-ny", "亲爱的林美秀姑姑" and the "再看我，再看我，我就把你喝掉！"
Heeheeeeheeeeee. :D
Last period was Mathematics.
Sleepy much.
After school, had D&T study time.
Nothing much.
After D&T, Yu Sheng come fetch me!
Raining ley.
He stand right outside the gate there wait for me.
Heeheee, like Daddy fetch daughter!
Cause he still hold an umbrella. :p
Daniel came too.
Then walked to West Plaza bus stop.
Took 359 bus!
Heehee.
Then home sweet home!
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
YS made ♥ 爱心面包 for me today.
Heehee, Bread la.
Green colour de!
First time see green colour de bread.
It was pandan flavoured.
No wonder green colour.
Smell like the pandan cake ley.
So nice the smell.
Heehee.
Then inside got spread the nutella.
Heehee.
Yum Yum!
And he promised to go for the Study Time today.
Actually hor, he promised alot times already.
But end up always never go de.
TODAY!
He never break promise, go for Study Time ley!
Happy happy!! :D
Must long term like that ley, don't want short term keep promise er yi.
Heehee.
Good boy okay? ^-^
After Study time, he sent me home.
Reach home, bathed then instantly on computer.
Hoho, daily routine is switch on the computer.
Hahaha. (:
Later gonna rush D&T Design Journal.
Tomorrow Deadline.
I haven't do Ideation yet!
Which is the most difficult part for me because my problem situation so difficult. ):
SAD FACE!
Plus I got an ulcer.
Big one, painful one. :O
I'm always having ulcers!
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Okay, enough. ._.
Goodbye!
Heehee, Bread la.
Green colour de!
First time see green colour de bread.
It was pandan flavoured.
No wonder green colour.
Smell like the pandan cake ley.
So nice the smell.
Heehee.
Then inside got spread the nutella.
Heehee.
Yum Yum!
And he promised to go for the Study Time today.
Actually hor, he promised alot times already.
But end up always never go de.
TODAY!
He never break promise, go for Study Time ley!
Happy happy!! :D
Must long term like that ley, don't want short term keep promise er yi.
Heehee.
Good boy okay? ^-^
After Study time, he sent me home.
Reach home, bathed then instantly on computer.
Hoho, daily routine is switch on the computer.
Hahaha. (:
Later gonna rush D&T Design Journal.
Tomorrow Deadline.
I haven't do Ideation yet!
Which is the most difficult part for me because my problem situation so difficult. ):
SAD FACE!
Plus I got an ulcer.
Big one, painful one. :O
I'm always having ulcers!
SAD FACE AGAIN! ):
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Okay, enough. ._.
Goodbye!
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Hello readers!
Miss me right?
Cause I didn't blog yesterday.
Heeheee, I know lah.
Yesterday after school, did not have study time, so went for band straight.
Sec4s don't have to play instruments anymore.
So yeah, just slack around.
Plus alot sec4s not there yet, cause the others have study time.
At there the sec4s only Sean, Khaliun, Jeremy and I.
Awhile later, the rest of the band went out for sectionals.
Stayed in the bandroom till 3:30pm.
Left the band room around 3:35pm together with Sean.
Cause we need to go for the Maths quiz thing.
Just came out from band room then Wai Kin called my phone.
LOL, asking where are we.
The venue was at Computer lab 1 & 2.
Fourth floor siah.
Saiful and Waikin already there le.
So we took the lift, lazy climb stairs ah. :x
We waited for the super slow lift.
Then got one teacher come.
She took the lift up to forth floor.
Lol, so we have to wait again for the lift to go up then come back down.
So slow siah.
But when we go in the lift up to forth floor, SO FAST. ._.
Finally at the forth floor.
Went in the computer lab.
We four sat at one row.
Then log in to Ace-learning to do the Maths quiz.
We have 30mins to answer 18 questions.
No discussion.
But we discussed in the end anyway. :x
I did all my own ley.
Somemore I never bring calculator.
I use the computer calculator. :p
Heehee, as for those questions with square roots, I anyhow choose answer.
In the end, I got 10 questions correct.
Did on my own ley!
Haha, after that went over to help Saiful and WaiKin.
The questions I do before mah, then I know which answer I click wrong de.
Haha, after they two done, we go over to Sean to help him.
He slow siah.
Last few questions we just told him the correct answer. LOL.
Finally finish, then went back band room.
Awhile later, we gathered all the sec4s.
Michelle & Khaliun talked to us about somethings.
Then like 5pm, the sec4s can leave already. :D
Just nice.
I trained over to Somerset to meet Sister at 313@Somerset.
Reached there around 6:05pm.
Dine at Din Tai Fung.
Sister ordered already.
Just nice when I reach, the food come already.
Heehee, love the DAN CHAO FAN.
After dinner, walked around then we walked over to Cineleisure.
Went up to the Cathay cineplex.
Collected our tickets for the preview of the Movie.
Its showing on 25 March but we get to watch the movie first. :D
When In Rome.
A successful and single Guggenheim art curator Beth (Kristen Bell) is at a point in her life where love seems like a luxury she just can't afford. Years of waiting for that perfect romance has made Beth bitter. One day, she goes to Rome to attend her younger sister's impulsive wedding. While there, she picks up coins from a reputed “fountain of love” (probably based on the Trevi Fountain). Almost immediately thereafter, she is pursued back to New York by a band of aggressive suitors whose coins she took, including a diminutive sausage magnate (Danny DeVito), a lanky street magician (Jon Heder), a doting painter (Will Arnett), and a narcissistic male model (Dax Shepard). Meanwhile, a smitten reporter (Josh Duhamel) does his best to convince Beth that true love isn't just a topic of fairy tales and romance novels.
The show was great.
Teaser. (:
After the movie lazy elaborate la.
Reached home close to midnight.
Super tired, bathed the went to bed already.
No chance to switch on the computer. ):
Next morning, which was this morning.
Heehee, to school with YS.
We reached school quite early.
So we sat there till Mr Chow ask us go quadrangle sit.
School today was so so.
Short day.
After school, went White Sands with Shermeen.
I bought earrings.
Heh, don't have earring le.
I bought 3pairs @ $5.
One pair was Ice Cream~
Other pair was Heart shaped~
Last pair was a Lock and a Key.
Heehee, I'm wearing the Ice Cream one. :D
Thats all for today!
Bye readers!
Miss me right?
Cause I didn't blog yesterday.
Heeheee, I know lah.
Yesterday after school, did not have study time, so went for band straight.
Sec4s don't have to play instruments anymore.
So yeah, just slack around.
Plus alot sec4s not there yet, cause the others have study time.
At there the sec4s only Sean, Khaliun, Jeremy and I.
Awhile later, the rest of the band went out for sectionals.
Stayed in the bandroom till 3:30pm.
Left the band room around 3:35pm together with Sean.
Cause we need to go for the Maths quiz thing.
Just came out from band room then Wai Kin called my phone.
LOL, asking where are we.
The venue was at Computer lab 1 & 2.
Fourth floor siah.
Saiful and Waikin already there le.
So we took the lift, lazy climb stairs ah. :x
We waited for the super slow lift.
Then got one teacher come.
She took the lift up to forth floor.
Lol, so we have to wait again for the lift to go up then come back down.
So slow siah.
But when we go in the lift up to forth floor, SO FAST. ._.
Finally at the forth floor.
Went in the computer lab.
We four sat at one row.
Then log in to Ace-learning to do the Maths quiz.
We have 30mins to answer 18 questions.
No discussion.
But we discussed in the end anyway. :x
I did all my own ley.
Somemore I never bring calculator.
I use the computer calculator. :p
Heehee, as for those questions with square roots, I anyhow choose answer.
In the end, I got 10 questions correct.
Did on my own ley!
Haha, after that went over to help Saiful and WaiKin.
The questions I do before mah, then I know which answer I click wrong de.
Haha, after they two done, we go over to Sean to help him.
He slow siah.
Last few questions we just told him the correct answer. LOL.
Finally finish, then went back band room.
Awhile later, we gathered all the sec4s.
Michelle & Khaliun talked to us about somethings.
Then like 5pm, the sec4s can leave already. :D
Just nice.
I trained over to Somerset to meet Sister at 313@Somerset.
Reached there around 6:05pm.
Dine at Din Tai Fung.
Sister ordered already.
Just nice when I reach, the food come already.
Heehee, love the DAN CHAO FAN.
After dinner, walked around then we walked over to Cineleisure.
Went up to the Cathay cineplex.
Collected our tickets for the preview of the Movie.
Its showing on 25 March but we get to watch the movie first. :D
When In Rome.
A successful and single Guggenheim art curator Beth (Kristen Bell) is at a point in her life where love seems like a luxury she just can't afford. Years of waiting for that perfect romance has made Beth bitter. One day, she goes to Rome to attend her younger sister's impulsive wedding. While there, she picks up coins from a reputed “fountain of love” (probably based on the Trevi Fountain). Almost immediately thereafter, she is pursued back to New York by a band of aggressive suitors whose coins she took, including a diminutive sausage magnate (Danny DeVito), a lanky street magician (Jon Heder), a doting painter (Will Arnett), and a narcissistic male model (Dax Shepard). Meanwhile, a smitten reporter (Josh Duhamel) does his best to convince Beth that true love isn't just a topic of fairy tales and romance novels.
The show was great.
Teaser. (:
After the movie lazy elaborate la.
Reached home close to midnight.
Super tired, bathed the went to bed already.
No chance to switch on the computer. ):
Next morning, which was this morning.
Heehee, to school with YS.
We reached school quite early.
So we sat there till Mr Chow ask us go quadrangle sit.
School today was so so.
Short day.
After school, went White Sands with Shermeen.
I bought earrings.
Heh, don't have earring le.
I bought 3pairs @ $5.
One pair was Ice Cream~
Other pair was Heart shaped~
Last pair was a Lock and a Key.
Heehee, I'm wearing the Ice Cream one. :D
Thats all for today!
Bye readers!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Today is Sunday.
Which means, its the last day of the March holiday!
WHICH MEANS!!
Tomorrow have school!
WHICH ALSO MEANS!!!
Homework's deadline.....
Oh my.
Shit shit shit.
Homework homework homework.
Gotta rush them all tonight. D:
ANYWAY.
Went down to Tampines to watch the movie Kidnapper!
Lim (Christopher Lee), a struggling and obnoxious 40-year-old taxi driver, is a complete failure. His wife left him years ago. And his only son - Wei Siang (Jerald Tan) - is frequently neglected. Mistaken for a rich man's son, Wei Siang is kidnapped at an arcade one day and held for an enormous ransom. Thus begins one father's relentless quest to get his son back. In the process, he gives up everything in his life to raise the ransom, only to discover that the nefarious kidnapper (Jack Lim) wants even more money. Unable to raise the second ransom, Lim descends into madness as grief and self-doubt overwhelms him. His own morals are threatened when he flirts with the dark side in a desperate attempt to get his son back.
The movie was great.
Go watch! :D
Before the movie, had lunch at Tampines One.
Photos shall do the talking!
Bye.
Which means, its the last day of the March holiday!
WHICH MEANS!!
Tomorrow have school!
WHICH ALSO MEANS!!!
Homework's deadline.....
Oh my.
Shit shit shit.
Homework homework homework.
Gotta rush them all tonight. D:
ANYWAY.
Went down to Tampines to watch the movie Kidnapper!
Lim (Christopher Lee), a struggling and obnoxious 40-year-old taxi driver, is a complete failure. His wife left him years ago. And his only son - Wei Siang (Jerald Tan) - is frequently neglected. Mistaken for a rich man's son, Wei Siang is kidnapped at an arcade one day and held for an enormous ransom. Thus begins one father's relentless quest to get his son back. In the process, he gives up everything in his life to raise the ransom, only to discover that the nefarious kidnapper (Jack Lim) wants even more money. Unable to raise the second ransom, Lim descends into madness as grief and self-doubt overwhelms him. His own morals are threatened when he flirts with the dark side in a desperate attempt to get his son back.
The movie was great.
Go watch! :D
Before the movie, had lunch at Tampines One.
Photos shall do the talking!
Bye.
People say: "If you hold back your feelings because you are afraid of getting hurt, you end up getting hurt anyway".
All these while, I've been holding back my feelings, lying to myself that I don't love you anymore.
But the matter of fact is, I still do.
I've always loved you, I just stopped showing it.
I've tried treating you coldly.
Thinking that if I treated you this way, you would eventually leave me.
But no, you did not.
No matter how much I tried to make you give up on me, you still did not.
You choose to continue loving me, taking care of me.
Despite how I treated you, you still treated me with care and love.
At times, you would break down, getting all emotionally because of how I treat you.
I know, I'm over doing it.
I know, I'm hurting you.
At the same time, hurting myself.
My heart wants to care for you, love you and treat you good.
But my mind just doesn't let me to.
Because my mind knows that I cannot trust you anymore.
Whats a relationship without trust?
I don't want to be with you and not trust you.
I don't want to doubt your words.
I don't want to feel insecure around you.
So, I'm always using this reason, to keep myself from wanting to go back to you.
But, am I happy?
No, I'm not happy, at all.
Seeing you sad all the time, listening to you crying.
But I still have to be hard-hearted, telling you I don't love you anymore.
Its so hard to fake it through.
People say: "Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have".
If I cannot make you how I want you to be, I should learn to accept you.
I need to accept who you are and who you will never be.
I know, I can't bear to leave you behind and just move on.
I know, I can't bear to see you sad anymore.
I know, I'm always waiting for you message to come.
I know, I'm still happy when I saw your name.
I know, I still check your facebook everyday.
I know, I'm always thinking about you.
I know, I can't forget you.
I know, I just can't let you go.
You've broken me so many times.
But I'm giving you one last chance, to bandage this shattered heart.
I can't promise you the world.
I can't promise you that I'll trust you totally,
I can't promise you that I'll never doubt you,
I can't promise you that I'll like all the things you do,
I can't promise you that I'll never answer your questions with "I don't know",
I can't promise you that I can accompany you everywhere,
I can't promise you that I'll not eat instant noodles,
I can't promise you that I'll never make mistakes,
I can't promise you alot.
But I can try the best I can.
I will learn to not keep things to myself.
I will learn to accept you.
I will always be there, whenever you need someone to talk to.
I will not eat instant noodles often.
I will try not to always use "I don't know" to brush off your questions.
I will try to make this love last long.
I will hold on, no matter what.
Love you always, love you still, always have, always will.
You're all that makes me happy but if you break my heart again, I'll kill you.
Just kidding at the kill you part. :p
Instead of looking at your faults, why shan't I look at your goodness?
No matter what happened in the past it doesn't matter, this is now and I love you so much.
"Letting go is not the way of loving someone, it means you're putting him on the wrong path.
Instead, fight for him; that's what true love is."
I know, people are going say things like:
Why am I going back to you again.
Whats so good about you.
Why am I always giving you chances after chances.
Who are you to make me love you so much.
When are we going to break up again.
How is it that our relationship are so draggy.
Its because they don't see you the way I see you.
They aren't part of this relationship.
They don't experience the same thing that I've experienced.
I'm not going to let all this affect me anymore.
I just want this relationship to be only You and Me.
All these while, I've been holding back my feelings, lying to myself that I don't love you anymore.
But the matter of fact is, I still do.
I've always loved you, I just stopped showing it.
I've tried treating you coldly.
Thinking that if I treated you this way, you would eventually leave me.
But no, you did not.
No matter how much I tried to make you give up on me, you still did not.
You choose to continue loving me, taking care of me.
Despite how I treated you, you still treated me with care and love.
At times, you would break down, getting all emotionally because of how I treat you.
I know, I'm over doing it.
I know, I'm hurting you.
At the same time, hurting myself.
My heart wants to care for you, love you and treat you good.
But my mind just doesn't let me to.
Because my mind knows that I cannot trust you anymore.
Whats a relationship without trust?
I don't want to be with you and not trust you.
I don't want to doubt your words.
I don't want to feel insecure around you.
So, I'm always using this reason, to keep myself from wanting to go back to you.
But, am I happy?
No, I'm not happy, at all.
Seeing you sad all the time, listening to you crying.
But I still have to be hard-hearted, telling you I don't love you anymore.
Its so hard to fake it through.
People say: "Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, it doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have".
If I cannot make you how I want you to be, I should learn to accept you.
I need to accept who you are and who you will never be.
I know, I can't bear to leave you behind and just move on.
I know, I can't bear to see you sad anymore.
I know, I'm always waiting for you message to come.
I know, I'm still happy when I saw your name.
I know, I still check your facebook everyday.
I know, I'm always thinking about you.
I know, I can't forget you.
I know, I just can't let you go.
You've broken me so many times.
But I'm giving you one last chance, to bandage this shattered heart.
I can't promise you the world.
I can't promise you that I'll trust you totally,
I can't promise you that I'll never doubt you,
I can't promise you that I'll like all the things you do,
I can't promise you that I'll never answer your questions with "I don't know",
I can't promise you that I can accompany you everywhere,
I can't promise you that I'll not eat instant noodles,
I can't promise you that I'll never make mistakes,
I can't promise you alot.
But I can try the best I can.
I will learn to not keep things to myself.
I will learn to accept you.
I will always be there, whenever you need someone to talk to.
I will not eat instant noodles often.
I will try not to always use "I don't know" to brush off your questions.
I will try to make this love last long.
I will hold on, no matter what.
Love you always, love you still, always have, always will.
You're all that makes me happy but if you break my heart again, I'll kill you.
Just kidding at the kill you part. :p
Instead of looking at your faults, why shan't I look at your goodness?
No matter what happened in the past it doesn't matter, this is now and I love you so much.
"Letting go is not the way of loving someone, it means you're putting him on the wrong path.
Instead, fight for him; that's what true love is."
I know, people are going say things like:
Why am I going back to you again.
Whats so good about you.
Why am I always giving you chances after chances.
Who are you to make me love you so much.
When are we going to break up again.
How is it that our relationship are so draggy.
Its because they don't see you the way I see you.
They aren't part of this relationship.
They don't experience the same thing that I've experienced.
I'm not going to let all this affect me anymore.
I just want this relationship to be only You and Me.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Friday, March 19, 2010
Awww...
From: LoveGivesMeHope
This morning as I was packing lunch, about to leave for work.
My boyfriend danced into the kitchen singing a made up song consisting of only my name over and over.
When he saw me,
He turned bright red and said
"Oh, you're still here".
Sneaking a peak in the daily routine of someone who really loves me.
GMH
GMH
_____________________________________
Today I was visiting my grandmother in the nursing home when I saw an elderly couple walking hand in hand.
I called a nurse to ask about them thinking they were just two very confusedpeople.
The nurse told me that the woman does have severe demensia,
but that the man is her husband.
I called a nurse to ask about them thinking they were just two very confusedpeople.
The nurse told me that the woman does have severe demensia,
but that the man is her husband.
He admitted himself so they would not be separated.
GMH
_____________________________________
Today when I was working, an adorable older couple came through my line.
When I asked if they had found everything they needed.
The woman looked at her husband and said
"I found everything I needed 43 years ago."
When I asked if they had found everything they needed.
The woman looked at her husband and said
"I found everything I needed 43 years ago."
_____________________________________
In sixth grade, I was always picked on. Every day I would cry.
Regardless of me being the most hated person at school,
Regardless of me being the most hated person at school,
one boy always walked me home and told me I was pretty.
Doing this made him hated, too.
He did this every day until we graduated.
Today, he is my wonderful husband.
Jason, your love,
GMH
_____________________________________
Today, I was eating lunch with my parents, when I saw my dad staring at my grandparents who where sitting together watching TV.
My dad leaned toward my mom and whispered,
My dad leaned toward my mom and whispered,
"When were old like them, we'll be sitting just like that."
Their love,
GMH
_____________________________________
Last week I found out that I have dissociative identity disorder, which means I have multiple personalities.
I told my girlfriend, she smiled at me and I was confused.
I told my girlfriend, she smiled at me and I was confused.
She told me that she already knew and that she loved ALL of me.
She is my hope.
_____________________________________
Before I started dating my boyfriend, I mentioned that I could never date a smoker.
The other day, I asked him if he ever smoked.
The other day, I asked him if he ever smoked.
He said he used to.
I asked when he quit, and he gave me a date in november.
It was a week after he met me.
Brian, your love,
GMH
_____________________________________
Today I visited my grandparents house, where I saw a valentines card on the table.
The card read 'My darling wife, you are the one who makes my life complete and I'll love you as long as I live'.
My grandad's a widower.
The card read 'My darling wife, you are the one who makes my life complete and I'll love you as long as I live'.
My grandad's a widower.
His undying love,
GMH
_____________________________________
My grandpa was in a bad snowmobiling accident that resulted in the doctors removing a part of his brain and was in a coma for several months.
The only persons name he could remember when he woke up was my grandmothers.
The only persons name he could remember when he woke up was my grandmothers.
His memory,
GMH
_____________________________________
When I was 13, a bunch of girls decided to lock me into the gardening house.
Little did they know the sprinklers poured down, drowning me,
Little did they know the sprinklers poured down, drowning me,
leaving me scared, wet and crying.
A boy punched through the glass and carried me to the school nurse,
A boy punched through the glass and carried me to the school nurse,
even with a bleeding, broken hand.
My now-husband's courage,
GMH
_____________________________________
My granddaddy smiled as a tear ran down his face and he said, "My little girl."
My grandparents grew up down the road from each other and fell in love.
My grandparents grew up down the road from each other and fell in love.
The "little girl" he was referring to was my dying,
eighty-three year old grandmother.
They fell in love at age twelve.
They fell in love at age twelve.
Their long-lasting love,
GMH
_____________________________________
For a few months before his death, my grandfather was too weak to get out of bed.
He was in a deep sleep when I asked my senile grandmother when they'd gotten married.
He was in a deep sleep when I asked my senile grandmother when they'd gotten married.
She couldn't remember,
but then my grandfather suddenly opened his eyes and clearly said
"20th of May, 1947."
Their 60 years of love,
GMH
_____________________________________
I was at a family reunion in Maryland and I was missing my boyfriend terribly.
When I got an unexpected call from him,
When I got an unexpected call from him,
I asked him how he found this number because I didn't tell him where I was staying.
He said he called every hotel in Maryland until he found mine.
His devotion,
GMH
_____________________________________
I volunteered at my local hospital and saw this old couple;
A man sat in a chair, holding his wife's hand on the bed and I heard her say,
"Promise you won't waste your last years missing me when I'm gone, Bill?"
A man sat in a chair, holding his wife's hand on the bed and I heard her say,
"Promise you won't waste your last years missing me when I'm gone, Bill?"
and he smiled and said,
"Sure. Promise you won't blame me when I break it?"
"Sure. Promise you won't blame me when I break it?"
Their love,
GMH
_____________________________________
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Overslept a little today.
Woke up around 6:30am.
Left house at 6:50am I guess.
Reached school before 7:15am.
The rest were having drills, while the sec4s prepared the breakfast in the canteen.
Spread Butter & Kaya. (:
I spread-ed the butter.
Heehee, quite fun ley.
Spread finish then the rest came back from drills.
Had breakfast together seated in sections.
After breakfast, the sec 1, 2 & 3s had drills.
The sec4s had a separate drills, taken by ZachD.
Right beside the juniors.
Haha, cause their drills lousy.
So ZD say action action abit to them. LOL.
Then was full band in band room.
Warm-ups and so.
Around 9 plus, we had sectionals.
At 10, the sec1s goes into the band room for full band together with Mr Pan.
While inside the bunk, left Sharon, Nadirah and Me only.
And with only one Tenor Saxophone.
Nadirah used the saxophone.
So Sharon SLEEP.
Haha, I don't know I do what.
Cannot sit still at one place.
At a moment, I went out see see.
Then go back in the class, climb up the tables, sat there.
Meditate. LOL.
Nadirah say I flying up already.
Meditate sian already then lie down.
Lie down also pain, then stand up, walk around again.
LOL, I never sat still.
Until I found Newspapers on the floor.
Picked one and sat on the table to read.
The comics section. :x
Awhile later, Eddie and the rest came back.
We had Section bonding again!
Haha, play play lah.
And finally, it was lunch time.
Mee Rubus & a hot dog.
Yummy!
Compared to the previous two meals.
Then was our section and clarinet section turn to clean the tables.
Our section only have 4 rags.
We have 6 people at there.
We end up use scissors paper stone to see who the four to do the cleaning.
Eddie and Celine never kena.
The Noel slack only.
I wipe halfway then sian already.
Eddie say help me.
Muahaha, suddenly so good. :D
After that, Sec 2 & 3s went in band room for full band again.
Nadirah was the only one from our section.
Aww. so lonely. ):
While the rest of us played again.
Played played played.
Practice a little bit too!
Then the percussion joined us.
Practice abit then played again.
Truth or dare.
Actually is Dare or Double Dare.
Hahaha.
We dare Noel to run through the quadrangle then back to the classroom.
As it was raining VERY heavily.
Thought he wouldn't.
But he did.
But half only.
Cause he walk over to the other side under the shelter.
Then from there run back here.
But this run is already enough to make him wet all over.
Hahahhaha.
A few here and there, I lazy elaborate.
Finally at 3 I think.
All of us went back band room.
The sec1s turn to have their solo performance.
Heehee.
I took photos of them.
Individuals while playing.
Two angles.
One at my angle, one hamkah beside me took it from a lower angle.
After which they all played together.
I took video. (:
The whole thing ended around 4pm.
Band was suppose to end at 5:30pm, but nothing else, so Mr Pan say let us off early.
At 4:30pm, we are dismissed already.
Went back bunks.
Arranged then left.
358 bus home.
Home sweet home.
Hungry hungry.
Finally, Mum came home with my favourite Beehoon & Chicken wings.
YUMMY! Nom Nom Nom..
Ahhh.
Tomorrow I'm gonna be home all day, ALONE. (T^T)
Mum asked me to settle my own lunch and dinner.
SAD FACE. ):
Woke up around 6:30am.
Left house at 6:50am I guess.
Reached school before 7:15am.
The rest were having drills, while the sec4s prepared the breakfast in the canteen.
Spread Butter & Kaya. (:
I spread-ed the butter.
Heehee, quite fun ley.
Spread finish then the rest came back from drills.
Had breakfast together seated in sections.
After breakfast, the sec 1, 2 & 3s had drills.
The sec4s had a separate drills, taken by ZachD.
Right beside the juniors.
Haha, cause their drills lousy.
So ZD say action action abit to them. LOL.
Then was full band in band room.
Warm-ups and so.
Around 9 plus, we had sectionals.
At 10, the sec1s goes into the band room for full band together with Mr Pan.
While inside the bunk, left Sharon, Nadirah and Me only.
And with only one Tenor Saxophone.
Nadirah used the saxophone.
So Sharon SLEEP.
Haha, I don't know I do what.
Cannot sit still at one place.
At a moment, I went out see see.
Then go back in the class, climb up the tables, sat there.
Meditate. LOL.
Nadirah say I flying up already.
Meditate sian already then lie down.
Lie down also pain, then stand up, walk around again.
LOL, I never sat still.
Until I found Newspapers on the floor.
Picked one and sat on the table to read.
The comics section. :x
Awhile later, Eddie and the rest came back.
We had Section bonding again!
Haha, play play lah.
And finally, it was lunch time.
Mee Rubus & a hot dog.
Yummy!
Compared to the previous two meals.
Then was our section and clarinet section turn to clean the tables.
Our section only have 4 rags.
We have 6 people at there.
We end up use scissors paper stone to see who the four to do the cleaning.
Eddie and Celine never kena.
The Noel slack only.
I wipe halfway then sian already.
Eddie say help me.
Muahaha, suddenly so good. :D
After that, Sec 2 & 3s went in band room for full band again.
Nadirah was the only one from our section.
Aww. so lonely. ):
While the rest of us played again.
Played played played.
Practice a little bit too!
Then the percussion joined us.
Practice abit then played again.
Truth or dare.
Actually is Dare or Double Dare.
Hahaha.
We dare Noel to run through the quadrangle then back to the classroom.
As it was raining VERY heavily.
Thought he wouldn't.
But he did.
But half only.
Cause he walk over to the other side under the shelter.
Then from there run back here.
But this run is already enough to make him wet all over.
Hahahhaha.
A few here and there, I lazy elaborate.
Finally at 3 I think.
All of us went back band room.
The sec1s turn to have their solo performance.
Heehee.
I took photos of them.
Individuals while playing.
Two angles.
One at my angle, one hamkah beside me took it from a lower angle.
After which they all played together.
I took video. (:
The whole thing ended around 4pm.
Band was suppose to end at 5:30pm, but nothing else, so Mr Pan say let us off early.
At 4:30pm, we are dismissed already.
Went back bunks.
Arranged then left.
358 bus home.
Home sweet home.
Hungry hungry.
Finally, Mum came home with my favourite Beehoon & Chicken wings.
YUMMY! Nom Nom Nom..
Ahhh.
Tomorrow I'm gonna be home all day, ALONE. (T^T)
Mum asked me to settle my own lunch and dinner.
SAD FACE. ):
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Band camp.
2D1N.
This year.
CRAP.
CORRUPTED.
BORING.
NO FUN.
Sorry but this is kind of the truth. (:
Went over to Sharon's house this morning around 8am.
Took the bus around 8:35am I guess.
Reached school then sat down at foyer.
Awhile later, DRILLS. ._.
Brandon & Fahdli.
The whole drills thing was... :/
Kind of disgrace to be in the squad. Seriously.
ZachD agrees too.
After awhile, ZD brought them for a run.
Theres no way I'm gonna join them. Muahahah.
Afterwards, the continued with the drills which I did not participate.
I just sat there together with Hamkah.
Awhile later, the settling of bunks and spot checks all that.
I just sat there and stared into space.
Hahaha.
Sean brought his whole pillow come. -.-
Shaun's sleeping bag very small.
LOL!
After which was drills drills drills.
Boring.
Sec4s no need do drills.
Some teach sec1 drills.
The rest, sec 2 & 3 do drills. MUAHA. :x
And then was main band at band room, full band.
The rest was sectionals in classroom.
Yawn.
And then was LUNCH TIME.
But but but.
The mee goreng so spicy.
Almost died while eating. :O
And then the Sec2&3 had drills.
Sec4s no need. :D
Sec1s also drills.
I was so sleepy.
So I sat in the canteen, sleep abit.
Hahaha.
After that, we had games.
The band was splited into two teams.
Then the game was played.
Each team have two pebbles each.
Then we have to steal the other team's pebbles, once we have 4 pebbles, we win.
Some people will guard the pebble, some will go to the other team and snatch.
One at basketball court.
One at quadrangle.
Haha, the two pebble have to be on the ground at all times.
Well, Hamkah and I guarded the pebbles.
And ZACHARY DESKER IS VIOLENT.
Thats all I need to say.
After which, sectionals till 5:50pm.
From 2:30pm leh.
Our section practice abit.
Then around 4plus.
We all sat down at the floor and had "Bonding session".
LOL.
Actually is slack la.
Then we play play play.
Eddie is so so so so funny in a way.
Noel is so irritating.
Hahaha.
Eddie Yeo is cute okay. (:
Played alot. Heehee.
And suddenly, Khaliun came in.
Then we kena push-ups.
Cause never tuck in. D:
After she go, continue playing.
Awhile later, practice abit.
Then we went out to quadrangle and played abit.
Then finally, sectionals end.
They went to bathe.
Then finally Dinner time at 7pm.
Not nice also.
Rice, SWEET & SOUR fish, cabbage w carrot.
I don't like Sweet & Sour the sauce. T^T
After dinner, R&R awhile.
Then sec1s sectionals.
The rest, in band room with Mr pan for full band.
Sian, the whole band kena scoldings. ):
Then came out.
Sectionals.
Awhile later, 9:30pm.
Finally can go home.
Called Mrs koh and asked her to open the gate for me.
After that, home sweet home.
Finally can bathe.
After bathing so shiok. :D
Kay lah.
I'm sleeping.
Good night.
Tomorrow need report at 7am. T^T
2D1N.
This year.
CRAP.
CORRUPTED.
BORING.
NO FUN.
Sorry but this is kind of the truth. (:
Went over to Sharon's house this morning around 8am.
Took the bus around 8:35am I guess.
Reached school then sat down at foyer.
Awhile later, DRILLS. ._.
Brandon & Fahdli.
The whole drills thing was... :/
Kind of disgrace to be in the squad. Seriously.
ZachD agrees too.
After awhile, ZD brought them for a run.
Theres no way I'm gonna join them. Muahahah.
Afterwards, the continued with the drills which I did not participate.
I just sat there together with Hamkah.
Awhile later, the settling of bunks and spot checks all that.
I just sat there and stared into space.
Hahaha.
Sean brought his whole pillow come. -.-
Shaun's sleeping bag very small.
LOL!
After which was drills drills drills.
Boring.
Sec4s no need do drills.
Some teach sec1 drills.
The rest, sec 2 & 3 do drills. MUAHA. :x
And then was main band at band room, full band.
The rest was sectionals in classroom.
Yawn.
And then was LUNCH TIME.
But but but.
The mee goreng so spicy.
Almost died while eating. :O
And then the Sec2&3 had drills.
Sec4s no need. :D
Sec1s also drills.
I was so sleepy.
So I sat in the canteen, sleep abit.
Hahaha.
After that, we had games.
The band was splited into two teams.
Then the game was played.
Each team have two pebbles each.
Then we have to steal the other team's pebbles, once we have 4 pebbles, we win.
Some people will guard the pebble, some will go to the other team and snatch.
One at basketball court.
One at quadrangle.
Haha, the two pebble have to be on the ground at all times.
Well, Hamkah and I guarded the pebbles.
And ZACHARY DESKER IS VIOLENT.
Thats all I need to say.
After which, sectionals till 5:50pm.
From 2:30pm leh.
Our section practice abit.
Then around 4plus.
We all sat down at the floor and had "Bonding session".
LOL.
Actually is slack la.
Then we play play play.
Eddie is so so so so funny in a way.
Noel is so irritating.
Hahaha.
Eddie Yeo is cute okay. (:
Played alot. Heehee.
And suddenly, Khaliun came in.
Then we kena push-ups.
Cause never tuck in. D:
After she go, continue playing.
Awhile later, practice abit.
Then we went out to quadrangle and played abit.
Then finally, sectionals end.
They went to bathe.
Then finally Dinner time at 7pm.
Not nice also.
Rice, SWEET & SOUR fish, cabbage w carrot.
I don't like Sweet & Sour the sauce. T^T
After dinner, R&R awhile.
Then sec1s sectionals.
The rest, in band room with Mr pan for full band.
Sian, the whole band kena scoldings. ):
Then came out.
Sectionals.
Awhile later, 9:30pm.
Finally can go home.
Called Mrs koh and asked her to open the gate for me.
After that, home sweet home.
Finally can bathe.
After bathing so shiok. :D
Kay lah.
I'm sleeping.
Good night.
Tomorrow need report at 7am. T^T
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
While doing some research for my chinese homework.
Found something kinda interesting. Haha.
Did not watch the whole video though.
I just click through.
Not interested.
Haha, not my problem.
See lah.
I'm so not interested in it, and I still need to write my views for it as chinese homework. ):
And and, the cameras never stopped flashing. :O
All the articles regarding this.
URL: 梁智强婚外情
Found something kinda interesting. Haha.
Did not watch the whole video though.
I just click through.
Not interested.
Haha, not my problem.
See lah.
I'm so not interested in it, and I still need to write my views for it as chinese homework. ):
And and, the cameras never stopped flashing. :O
All the articles regarding this.
URL: 梁智强婚外情
Monday, March 15, 2010
My TO-DOs today.
I've completed vacuuming the house.
I've washed & hanged the clothes.
I've done the physics worksheet, but its only half done.
To be truthful, its less than a quarter done, because I have no idea how to do as I don't know the formulaes. ):
As for the 1 set of Mathematics MYE paper, its a quarter done too.
I hate maths. D:
I have no idea how to do.
I am glad to announce that I've completed the Comprehension Package: Paper 4.
BUT!
I did not do the summary.
Heeeheee.
So troublesome.
Maybe I'll do tonight, but I doubt I will do. :/
And the memorising of 5 words each from Anger in English Improving Writing Blue book, I've done it. :D
Easy Peasy.
I've choosed this 5 phrases.
-An enraged snarl.
-Cursing under his breath.
-Face was taut with anger.
-Flashed an indidnant glance at me.
-Wringing her hands in fustration.
Nice right?
Heehee.
But I guess, I will forget them at the end of this week.
Opps! ^o*
Alright, I'm done blogging today.
Off to watch my DRAMAS.
Bye readers.
p.s. This is so cute. (:
- Vacuum the house.
- Wash & hang clothes.
- Do Physics Worksheet.
- Do 1 set of Mathematics MYE paper.
- Do Comprehension Package: Paper 4. (Summary must write points)
- English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 5 words each from Anger.
I've completed vacuuming the house.
I've washed & hanged the clothes.
I've done the physics worksheet, but its only half done.
To be truthful, its less than a quarter done, because I have no idea how to do as I don't know the formulaes. ):
As for the 1 set of Mathematics MYE paper, its a quarter done too.
I hate maths. D:
I have no idea how to do.
I am glad to announce that I've completed the Comprehension Package: Paper 4.
BUT!
I did not do the summary.
Heeeheee.
So troublesome.
Maybe I'll do tonight, but I doubt I will do. :/
And the memorising of 5 words each from Anger in English Improving Writing Blue book, I've done it. :D
Easy Peasy.
I've choosed this 5 phrases.
-An enraged snarl.
-Cursing under his breath.
-Face was taut with anger.
-Flashed an indidnant glance at me.
-Wringing her hands in fustration.
Nice right?
Heehee.
But I guess, I will forget them at the end of this week.
Opps! ^o*
Alright, I'm done blogging today.
Off to watch my DRAMAS.
Bye readers.
p.s. This is so cute. (:
Sunday, March 14, 2010
This week's of holiday isn't considered a holiday at all.
It is more suitable to name it as Homework week. D:
Look at the piles of homework I have.
But Wednesday & Thursday, I have Band Camp.
Two days minus away already lah.
Hais.
The most reluctant to do one is the Chinese Bao Zhang Bao Dao and Design & Technology.
And so I shall plan my time! :D
Monday:
Physics Worksheet.
1 set of Mathematics MYE paper.
Comprehension Package: Paper 4. (Summary must write points)
English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 5 words each from Anger.
Tuesday:
Chinese Bao Zhang Bao Dao.
Situational Writing Package: Planning.
-Page 7. (Fill in the Decision Matrix)
-Page 45 & 47. (Plannings written on Post it)
English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 5 words each from Fear.
Friday:
1 set of Mathematics MYE paper.
Design & Technology Design Journal.
-Design Specification.
-Field Trips.
English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 5 words each from Happiness.
Saturday:
Chemistry Worksheet.
Design & Technology Design Journal.
-Product Analysis.
English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 5 words each from Sadness.
-Memorise the 10 words under the topic General. (Know the meaning as well)
Sunday:
1 set of Mathematics MYE paper.
English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 10 Idioms at Page 65. (Meaning and Idiom)
Design & Technology Design Journal.
-Ideation.
Ace-Learning Homework.
Hahaha.
I'm not sure if I'm able to keep on task.
Because I'm a Unless-its-due-tomorrow-I-don't-care person. :x
It is more suitable to name it as Homework week. D:
Look at the piles of homework I have.
- Geography Worksheet.
- Comprehension Package: Paper 4. (Summary must write points)
- Situational Writing Package: Planning.
-Page 7. (Fill in the Decision Matrix)
-Page 45 & 47. (Plannings written on Post it) - English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise the 10 words under the topic General. (Know the meaning as well)
-Memorise 5 words each from Anger, Fear, Happiness & Sadness.
-Memorise 10 Idioms at Page 65. (Meaning and Idiom) - Physics Worksheet.
- Chemistry Worksheet.
- Chinese Bao Zhang Bao Dao.
- 3 sets of Mathematics MYE papers.
- Design & Technology Design Journal.
-Product Analysis.
-Ideation.
-Design Specification.
-Field Trips. - Ace-learning Homework.
But Wednesday & Thursday, I have Band Camp.
Two days minus away already lah.
Hais.
The most reluctant to do one is the Chinese Bao Zhang Bao Dao and Design & Technology.
And so I shall plan my time! :D
Monday:
Physics Worksheet.
1 set of Mathematics MYE paper.
Comprehension Package: Paper 4. (Summary must write points)
English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 5 words each from Anger.
Tuesday:
Chinese Bao Zhang Bao Dao.
Situational Writing Package: Planning.
-Page 7. (Fill in the Decision Matrix)
-Page 45 & 47. (Plannings written on Post it)
English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 5 words each from Fear.
Friday:
1 set of Mathematics MYE paper.
Design & Technology Design Journal.
-Design Specification.
-Field Trips.
English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 5 words each from Happiness.
Saturday:
Chemistry Worksheet.
Design & Technology Design Journal.
-Product Analysis.
English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 5 words each from Sadness.
-Memorise the 10 words under the topic General. (Know the meaning as well)
Sunday:
1 set of Mathematics MYE paper.
English Improving Writing Blue book.
-Memorise 10 Idioms at Page 65. (Meaning and Idiom)
Design & Technology Design Journal.
-Ideation.
Ace-Learning Homework.
Hahaha.
I'm not sure if I'm able to keep on task.
Because I'm a Unless-its-due-tomorrow-I-don't-care person. :x
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Failed Boomerang.
Students.
Shopping Teams.
Can't Sleep.
Fans.
Making Hash Browns.
Techno.
Alienation.
Photomosaic of the famous painting by Van Gogh, 'Starry Night'. http://www.andreaplanet.com/mosaic/starrynight/
Students.
Shopping Teams.
Can't Sleep.
Fans.
Making Hash Browns.
Techno.
Alienation.
Photomosaic of the famous painting by Van Gogh, 'Starry Night'. http://www.andreaplanet.com/mosaic/starrynight/
Friday, March 12, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
I've used 6 packs of tissue today.
2 from myself.
1 from Kai Shan.
1 from Sean.
1 from Hamkah.
1 from Priscilla.
Its totally like FOUNTAIN. D:
Anyway, today after Mathematics class.
We had homework of 4 question.
I completed 3 questions already.
Left one question undone.
I was like thinking, just because of one question, need bring whole textbook home?
Plus the question was too long to be copied.
I actually thought of not doing, just wait till the next day in class then do.
I turned to Shermeen, asking her if she is bringing home the textbook or not, cause just 1 question.
She was like: "Aiyah, nevermind lah, just bring home."
So I sat there whining.
And suddenly, we had an idea.
Heeheehee...
TADA! ^-^
Clever right.
Take photo. :p
Sent Shermeen the photo, cause her phone take very blur.
Mine have Macro. (:
Okay lah, shall stop here.
Have lots of homework to do, and is due tomorrow. ):
2 from myself.
1 from Kai Shan.
1 from Sean.
1 from Hamkah.
1 from Priscilla.
Its totally like FOUNTAIN. D:
Anyway, today after Mathematics class.
We had homework of 4 question.
I completed 3 questions already.
Left one question undone.
I was like thinking, just because of one question, need bring whole textbook home?
Plus the question was too long to be copied.
I actually thought of not doing, just wait till the next day in class then do.
I turned to Shermeen, asking her if she is bringing home the textbook or not, cause just 1 question.
She was like: "Aiyah, nevermind lah, just bring home."
So I sat there whining.
And suddenly, we had an idea.
Heeheehee...
TADA! ^-^
Clever right.
Take photo. :p
Sent Shermeen the photo, cause her phone take very blur.
Mine have Macro. (:
Okay lah, shall stop here.
Have lots of homework to do, and is due tomorrow. ):
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Was super tired last night and so, I went to bed early.
9 o'clock.
So early.
But still, in the morning, waking up at 5:45am, I still feel sleepy.
And what happened to me was stupid.
A double Decker bus was behind a bus, then I thought the bus is 81, so I board the bus.
Only when the bus reaches the next stop, I realise I'm on bus 17 instead. ._.
Haha, nevermind.
I was deciding between alighting at Yue Yi's bus stop and change bus to 89 (which means going to school with Yue yi), or just travel all the way to the interchange and change to 358 bus to school.
Since it was raining, and I was kinda lazy to alight the bus, I travelled to the interchange instead.
I saw Yue yi at the bus stop. (:
When I reached the interchange, just nice the 358 bus came.
And in a blink of eyes, I'm right outside the school.
So fast. :D
Just nice, Shermeen just reached school too.
Went up to the classroom.
Nobody in there.
After like a few minutes later, Yue yi walked in.
I was thinking: "Phew, lucky never take 89, later still need walk to school and so long".
Hohoho.
I'm kinda lazy to blog about school today.
So lets just end the post here okay?
Okay.
Oh, and since when did MMVs became like this?
It used to be super lousy and ugly.
I like the translations. (:
9 o'clock.
So early.
But still, in the morning, waking up at 5:45am, I still feel sleepy.
And what happened to me was stupid.
A double Decker bus was behind a bus, then I thought the bus is 81, so I board the bus.
Only when the bus reaches the next stop, I realise I'm on bus 17 instead. ._.
Haha, nevermind.
I was deciding between alighting at Yue Yi's bus stop and change bus to 89 (which means going to school with Yue yi), or just travel all the way to the interchange and change to 358 bus to school.
Since it was raining, and I was kinda lazy to alight the bus, I travelled to the interchange instead.
I saw Yue yi at the bus stop. (:
When I reached the interchange, just nice the 358 bus came.
And in a blink of eyes, I'm right outside the school.
So fast. :D
Just nice, Shermeen just reached school too.
Went up to the classroom.
Nobody in there.
After like a few minutes later, Yue yi walked in.
I was thinking: "Phew, lucky never take 89, later still need walk to school and so long".
Hohoho.
I'm kinda lazy to blog about school today.
So lets just end the post here okay?
Okay.
Oh, and since when did MMVs became like this?
It used to be super lousy and ugly.
I like the translations. (:
Monday, March 08, 2010
I've came to a decision.
I'm really letting this relationship go.
Yes, I admit, I still do love you.
But whats love without trust?
I really just cannot trust you anymore.
Had this conversation with Michelle yesterday.
Its isn't the full conversation because somethings are meant to be kept.
Me: You know. After I broke up with him this time. I wanted a clean break up. I dunwan do the patch break patch break thing again. So I actually treated him coldly. Cause I know he doesn't like me treating him coldly. So most probably he would really give up on me. He asked me if I still love him or not. I said no. But actually, I know it myself, I still do love him. I cannot just forget him so easily. Every little thing I do, reminds me of him. Everytime my phone have message coming in, I always hoped it was him. But in the end, I still reply him coldly. ):
Michelle: Girl, you're in self-denial. You know you still love him but you don't want to have anything to do with him. I know its hard for you now and you might even be secretly crying a few nights. Sometimes even dreaming about him. But its alright, we're all strong girls. Love is like gambling. Once you've lost or given up, you have to clear your debts. Don't be stupid and gamble on the same guy again. Because you'll end up burning your fingers. Its time to move on girl! Though saying that is super easy, but doing it is hard.
Me: But its so difficult whenever I see him trying so hard. Asking me why am I doing this. All the things he is doing to try and save this relationship.
Michelle: Its no use saying sorry after stabbing your innocent heart. Yeah, he is trying hard to solve the r/s, but is he worth it? You're a precious gem, but rmb how he treated you like shit? Sometimes its the things he do that makes you wna let go. And since you've already let go, so be it. Everything will fall into place eventually. Don't be softhearted my dear! Be a strong and vengeful person.
Me: But I don't want to regret next time. ): I still care for him, I still think of him. It comes naturally. I don't know how would I ever stop caring for him. Its like when I thought of letting go, I remember all the reason why I held on so long.
Michelle: You can still care for him.. As a friend. You still can be the best of friends. But don't fall back into the game of love. You won't regret, trust me. Once you've set your mind into something, you will find all the reasons why you did that. And i can assure you, leaving him is the best choice. Babe, it doesn't only benefits you, but it lets him learn a valuable lesson on how to treat a girl well. Trust me, this pain will kill you, but it won't last that long. When you grow up. you will realize that leaving him makes you proud. Let him know that its his fault that you left him, don't keep giving him chances. You're spoiling him.
Me: But I'm afraid that talking to him would make my heart go back to him. But not talking to him makes me miss him so much. In the end I talk to him, but like treat him so cold. Its like hurting him. And in the same time, its like giving him hope. But I'm not happy. Not at all. I realize I'm actually happier during the times spent with him.
Michelle: Do you know you're starting your smses with 'but'? You're technically letting yourself get hurt for all the wrong reasons. Its time to wake up. Maybe you still want to be happy again. But you don't need him, do you? Do you dare say you want to marry him? If not, face the facts. You're just hungry for love and attention. I'm not saying anything, but I want you to see reality as it is. You don't need a guy to make your life like a rollercoaster. He will take you for granted if you let him. Joanne, do you know when you said you wanted to break up, you actually chose to run away from problem rather than solve it? You've chosen to run away, so continue running. Why turn back? Keep the happy memories inside your brain. It'll just be another chapter of your life.
Me: I've actually thought of marrying him before. Haha. Its like there wouldn't be another guy that I would love better. No matter what he do to me, in the end I still forgive him. And when I broke up with him, I know I'm running away from the problem. Can't I go back and solve the problem so that the problem would never be a problem again? But in the same time, I'm afraid of what people thinks.
Michelle: Don't care what other people think. Does he want to marry you too? If he does, he won't be treating you this way. No, you can't turn back in love. Unless you can tame him well. I can tell you a million times not to make the same mistakes again but it only takes one more foolish decision of yours to turn the whole table around.
Me: Maybe he's trying to make up for all the wrongdoings? Cause everytime we patch, he would treat me better and try all his ways to make me happy. When I preferred talking on the phone than smsing, he would call me instead. And he would always remember the little things. Whatever I've told him before, he would remember. Thats really something that makes me love him so much.
Michelle: I rmbed the last time you patched, you said he is treating you better. But look what did he did to you in the end? He's a nice guy, but when you both just aint compatible, it just doesn't fit. You're still a girl, you will not be able to deal with all the problem he'll give you. In the end, you'll still let go..someday. Right? Hmmm. Its better to go the harsh way to hurt him, and even yourself.
Me: At least he didn't did the same mistakes again? Everyone does mistakes, don't they? Shouldn't we give them chances? I know I've been giving him alot of chances and many people think why would I do such things for someone who is so not worth it. But thats just love isn't it?
Michelle: In the end of the day, you have to make a decision. I will support every decision you make. But don't regret what you've decided. He may give you hell, but you've got to persevere.. Don't give up on love, since you've decided to fall back in again. Ok?
Last night, I've been trying to find all the reasons to fall back into love.
Because I thought that since I've held on so long, why shan't I continue holding on?
Since I've always been giving you chances, why can't I give you again?
Then I realize, I don't trust you anymore.
I don't trust you enough to go back to you.
I'm afraid that history would repeat and I would end up being hurt again.
I've been enduring all the hurt I'm getting from you, because I thought that if I love you, I will be able to tolerate all this.
I've always thought that love is the most important thing.
You just need to love, so that you will trust and accept.
But now, I truly understand that I need to be able to trust and accept you, before being able to love you.
Since I am now incapable of trusting and accepting you, I'm not fit to love you.
Thus, I'm backing out from this.
Until I learn how to love someone unconditionally.
I cannot take lies.
Especially from the one I love the most, you.
But whats disappoints me most is not that you is still smoking all the while.
Its actually that you are lying to me all the while.
Remember you said to me this before?
"See, people say quiting is difficult, but I've done it."
At that moment, I've really believed you.
But now, knowing the truth from other's mouth, I'm totally disappointed.
I have actually asked you alot of time, but you just kept denying and denying.
And so much for me trusting you.
Believing that you must have your reason for lying to me.
But I was wrong.
I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm just upset that from now on, I can't believe you.
I used to believe in forever.
I used to believe that love is able to overcome everything.
I used to believe in love.
But now, no more.
I don't want to believe in love anymore.
Can I leave it all behind?
Cause I cant go back.
The truth of the matter is, I still have feelings for you.
And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off with out you, a part of me just won't let go.
I know.
So from today onwards.
I'm trying my best.
To leave it all behind, and never look back.
People think it is holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go.
There were reasons we met, reasons for the good times and reasons for the bad times, and most importantly a reason to end.
So, from now on.
Just forget about me, Okay?
Don't miss me.
Don't love me anymore.
Don't say you can't, cause you did it before to someone you loved so much before.
I'm really letting this relationship go.
Yes, I admit, I still do love you.
But whats love without trust?
I really just cannot trust you anymore.
Had this conversation with Michelle yesterday.
Its isn't the full conversation because somethings are meant to be kept.
Me: You know. After I broke up with him this time. I wanted a clean break up. I dunwan do the patch break patch break thing again. So I actually treated him coldly. Cause I know he doesn't like me treating him coldly. So most probably he would really give up on me. He asked me if I still love him or not. I said no. But actually, I know it myself, I still do love him. I cannot just forget him so easily. Every little thing I do, reminds me of him. Everytime my phone have message coming in, I always hoped it was him. But in the end, I still reply him coldly. ):
Michelle: Girl, you're in self-denial. You know you still love him but you don't want to have anything to do with him. I know its hard for you now and you might even be secretly crying a few nights. Sometimes even dreaming about him. But its alright, we're all strong girls. Love is like gambling. Once you've lost or given up, you have to clear your debts. Don't be stupid and gamble on the same guy again. Because you'll end up burning your fingers. Its time to move on girl! Though saying that is super easy, but doing it is hard.
Me: But its so difficult whenever I see him trying so hard. Asking me why am I doing this. All the things he is doing to try and save this relationship.
Michelle: Its no use saying sorry after stabbing your innocent heart. Yeah, he is trying hard to solve the r/s, but is he worth it? You're a precious gem, but rmb how he treated you like shit? Sometimes its the things he do that makes you wna let go. And since you've already let go, so be it. Everything will fall into place eventually. Don't be softhearted my dear! Be a strong and vengeful person.
Me: But I don't want to regret next time. ): I still care for him, I still think of him. It comes naturally. I don't know how would I ever stop caring for him. Its like when I thought of letting go, I remember all the reason why I held on so long.
Michelle: You can still care for him.. As a friend. You still can be the best of friends. But don't fall back into the game of love. You won't regret, trust me. Once you've set your mind into something, you will find all the reasons why you did that. And i can assure you, leaving him is the best choice. Babe, it doesn't only benefits you, but it lets him learn a valuable lesson on how to treat a girl well. Trust me, this pain will kill you, but it won't last that long. When you grow up. you will realize that leaving him makes you proud. Let him know that its his fault that you left him, don't keep giving him chances. You're spoiling him.
Me: But I'm afraid that talking to him would make my heart go back to him. But not talking to him makes me miss him so much. In the end I talk to him, but like treat him so cold. Its like hurting him. And in the same time, its like giving him hope. But I'm not happy. Not at all. I realize I'm actually happier during the times spent with him.
Michelle: Do you know you're starting your smses with 'but'? You're technically letting yourself get hurt for all the wrong reasons. Its time to wake up. Maybe you still want to be happy again. But you don't need him, do you? Do you dare say you want to marry him? If not, face the facts. You're just hungry for love and attention. I'm not saying anything, but I want you to see reality as it is. You don't need a guy to make your life like a rollercoaster. He will take you for granted if you let him. Joanne, do you know when you said you wanted to break up, you actually chose to run away from problem rather than solve it? You've chosen to run away, so continue running. Why turn back? Keep the happy memories inside your brain. It'll just be another chapter of your life.
Me: I've actually thought of marrying him before. Haha. Its like there wouldn't be another guy that I would love better. No matter what he do to me, in the end I still forgive him. And when I broke up with him, I know I'm running away from the problem. Can't I go back and solve the problem so that the problem would never be a problem again? But in the same time, I'm afraid of what people thinks.
Michelle: Don't care what other people think. Does he want to marry you too? If he does, he won't be treating you this way. No, you can't turn back in love. Unless you can tame him well. I can tell you a million times not to make the same mistakes again but it only takes one more foolish decision of yours to turn the whole table around.
Me: Maybe he's trying to make up for all the wrongdoings? Cause everytime we patch, he would treat me better and try all his ways to make me happy. When I preferred talking on the phone than smsing, he would call me instead. And he would always remember the little things. Whatever I've told him before, he would remember. Thats really something that makes me love him so much.
Michelle: I rmbed the last time you patched, you said he is treating you better. But look what did he did to you in the end? He's a nice guy, but when you both just aint compatible, it just doesn't fit. You're still a girl, you will not be able to deal with all the problem he'll give you. In the end, you'll still let go..someday. Right? Hmmm. Its better to go the harsh way to hurt him, and even yourself.
Me: At least he didn't did the same mistakes again? Everyone does mistakes, don't they? Shouldn't we give them chances? I know I've been giving him alot of chances and many people think why would I do such things for someone who is so not worth it. But thats just love isn't it?
Michelle: In the end of the day, you have to make a decision. I will support every decision you make. But don't regret what you've decided. He may give you hell, but you've got to persevere.. Don't give up on love, since you've decided to fall back in again. Ok?
Last night, I've been trying to find all the reasons to fall back into love.
Because I thought that since I've held on so long, why shan't I continue holding on?
Since I've always been giving you chances, why can't I give you again?
Then I realize, I don't trust you anymore.
I don't trust you enough to go back to you.
I'm afraid that history would repeat and I would end up being hurt again.
I've been enduring all the hurt I'm getting from you, because I thought that if I love you, I will be able to tolerate all this.
I've always thought that love is the most important thing.
You just need to love, so that you will trust and accept.
But now, I truly understand that I need to be able to trust and accept you, before being able to love you.
Since I am now incapable of trusting and accepting you, I'm not fit to love you.
Thus, I'm backing out from this.
Until I learn how to love someone unconditionally.
I cannot take lies.
Especially from the one I love the most, you.
But whats disappoints me most is not that you is still smoking all the while.
Its actually that you are lying to me all the while.
Remember you said to me this before?
"See, people say quiting is difficult, but I've done it."
At that moment, I've really believed you.
But now, knowing the truth from other's mouth, I'm totally disappointed.
I have actually asked you alot of time, but you just kept denying and denying.
And so much for me trusting you.
Believing that you must have your reason for lying to me.
But I was wrong.
I'm not upset that you lied to me, I'm just upset that from now on, I can't believe you.
I used to believe in forever.
I used to believe that love is able to overcome everything.
I used to believe in love.
But now, no more.
I don't want to believe in love anymore.
Can I leave it all behind?
Cause I cant go back.
The truth of the matter is, I still have feelings for you.
And no matter how many times I tell myself that I'm better off with out you, a part of me just won't let go.
I know.
So from today onwards.
I'm trying my best.
To leave it all behind, and never look back.
People think it is holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go.
There were reasons we met, reasons for the good times and reasons for the bad times, and most importantly a reason to end.
So, from now on.
Just forget about me, Okay?
Don't miss me.
Don't love me anymore.
Don't say you can't, cause you did it before to someone you loved so much before.
Sunday, March 07, 2010
A story I've just read somewhere. (:
The Last Words.
It had been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm.
I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together.
She said, "I miss you."
I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home."
She did not open up her umbrella, I knew she wanted to share mine.
I said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go."
Unwillingly, She opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she hadn't eat lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.
Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!"
Disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station, she said she would take the train back home.
Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay for the night.
But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."
We were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping. We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. Maybe it was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she graduated she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her on holidays, but never for long. That was how we kept the treasured relationship.
We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, she was too into thinking or whatever she was doing, drifting off the road, she almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wanted to just take her in my arms, but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go.
She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this."
With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face.
She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."
I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?"
I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"
I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.
Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. I didn't think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. Until a month ago, my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, and the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain wouldl go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe. I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end. I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I decided to commit suicide.
But I couldn't let people find out about my intentions, especially Susan, the person I love the most in this whole world, who still doesn't know about the truth. Susan was still young, she shouldn't have to go through this. So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out three years's feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose hair and she would find out eventually. But now I'm close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end, that was what I had in mind.
The train had stopped running so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, loosing our last moments in silence.
I saw the taxi from far away, I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself."
She didn't talk, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I close the gate that would separate me from her forever. I stood by the car, staring in the dark window, at the first love in my life, also the last one, walking out of my life. The car started, driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly chasing after the taxi, because I knew, this would be the last time I see her.
I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay, I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi had already turned in the corner. Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, not because of the rain. I was cold inside.
She left, and I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets. But I'm not Chris, I'm that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words.
The Last Words.
It had been raining for more than a week, so much rain it made everyday seemed so restless and gloomy. She called and said she was coming up. It was the third time she came up to see me that week. I carried her excuse of why she came all the way here and went to meet her at the nearby seven-eleven. She was standing there alone, carrying her red umbrella. Her friend had dropped her off. It was raining and she was shivering. She looked weak and fragile in the harsh rain, wearing not enough to keep her warm.
I walked up to her and said, "You shouldn't come see me anymore," and stuff like how we shouldn't be together.
She said, "I miss you."
I told her coldly, "Lets go, I'll take you home."
She did not open up her umbrella, I knew she wanted to share mine.
I said, "Open up your umbrella, let's go."
Unwillingly, She opened up her umbrella and walked with me to the car. She said she hadn't eat lunch or dinner and asked if we could stop at some place to eat.
Right away I answered with a stoned heart, "No!"
Disappointed, she asked me to take her to the train station, she said she would take the train back home.
Maybe it was the rain, all the trains were full of people with umbrellas and suit cases who were eager to get home, not caring about who just passed by. We waited and waited, she looked at me innocently. Being together for so long, of course I knew what she meant. I understand how she must feel when she came all this way here in this kind of weather and I treat her like this. With her soft eyes staring at me, I felt guilt and wanted to let her stay for the night.
But reality struck again, I said to her coldly, "Let's go try the other train station."
We were living in the same apartment building, on the same floor. Back then there were four of us, and we got along well. We would always eat dinner together, watch movies, and sometimes go camping. We were more like a family, but I didn't know I would end up falling in love with the only girl of the four. Maybe it was during the last year of college, having living together for two years, we developed deep feelings for each other. After she graduated she went back home, and I stayed for one more year to finish school. During that year I was only able to take the train down to see her on holidays, but never for long. That was how we kept the treasured relationship.
We were walking along the side of the road. She was in front of me and I was right behind her. Her umbrella had a broken spoke. She looked liked a wounded soldier, carrying her rusted rifle walking weakly. Many times, she was too into thinking or whatever she was doing, drifting off the road, she almost got hit by the cars passing by. I wanted to just take her in my arms, but with the love I had for her and the constant pain in my stomach, I did nothing. On the way, we passed by the park where we use to always go.
She begged and said, "Lets go in the park just for a little while please, I promise I'll go home right after this."
With her begging, my cold heart softened, but I still put up an annoyed face and walked in the park. I was just sitting on the benches looking like I wanted to leave. She went to the big oak tree and she was looking for something. I knew she was looking for what we wrote on that tree with a silver ink pen half a year ago. If I remember it right, it said, "Chris and Susan was here, Chris had tea and Susan was drinking hot chocolate. Hope Chris and Susan would always remember this day, always loving each other, forever." She was looking around for quite a while, then she came back slowly with tears on her face.
She said, "Chris, I can't find it, it's not there anymore."
I felt so sour inside, there was a stream of pain, flowing into my heart, the kind of pain I've never felt before. But all I could do was pretend I didn't care, and said, "Can we go now?"
I opened up my big black umbrella, she was just standing there, didn't want to leave yet, hoping there was still a chance. She said, "You made up the story of you and that other girl didn't you? I know I frustrate you sometimes, but I'll change, can't we start over?"
I didn't say a word, just looked down and shook my head. After that we just kept on walking towards the train station, didn't say a word to each other.
Four years ago, the doctor said I had cancer, but it was found early, so it was still curable. Thinking that it was okay, I started living my normal life again, and even forgot about the cancer. I didn't think about the cancer again and did not go back to the doctor. Until a month ago, my stomach was hurting for two weeks straight, and the nightmare awakened me again. First I thought the pain wouldl go away, but it grew stronger until to the point that I couldn't take it anymore. I went back to the doctor and took an X-ray. The picture came out and there was a big black spot, which proved the truth that I did not want to believe. I was at the most glittering part of my life, but it was coming to an end. I wanted myself and the people around me to go through the least pain possible, so I decided to commit suicide.
But I couldn't let people find out about my intentions, especially Susan, the person I love the most in this whole world, who still doesn't know about the truth. Susan was still young, she shouldn't have to go through this. So I made up some stories and lied to her. It was a cruel thing to do, and it broke her heart, but it was the fastest way to wipe out three years's feelings. I didn't have much time, because I would soon start to loose hair and she would find out eventually. But now I'm close to succeeding, this drama would soon be over. Thirty minutes more this would all come to an end, that was what I had in mind.
The train had stopped running so I called a taxi for her. We were just standing there, waiting, loosing our last moments in silence.
I saw the taxi from far away, I held my tears and said to her, "Take care of yourself, take good care of yourself."
She didn't talk, just nodded lightly, and then opened up her misshaped umbrella and stepped out on the street. Out in the rain, we became two single life forms, one red, one black, so far away from each other. I opened the door for her and she got in, then I close the gate that would separate me from her forever. I stood by the car, staring in the dark window, at the first love in my life, also the last one, walking out of my life. The car started, driving into the street. Finally I couldn't hold my sorrow and the twist in my heart any longer, waving my arms rapidly chasing after the taxi, because I knew, this would be the last time I see her.
I wanted to tell her I still love her, I wanted to tell her to stay, I wanted to tell her so much, but the taxi had already turned in the corner. Warm tears kept falling down my face, blended with the cold rain drops. I was cold, not because of the rain. I was cold inside.
She left, and I didn't get anymore of her phone calls even until today. I know she didn't see my tears, because they were washed away by the rain. I left without regrets. But I'm not Chris, I'm that girl Susan, using my memory, and his diary I found after one year since he left, writing down these last words.
While tidying my things, I found these bunch of badges and primary school badges.
Those "Good Progess Award", "Master Reader", "I am a Young Environmentalist/Mathematician/Zoologist/Ornithologist/Marine Biologist", "LPS Abacus Master", "Model Pupil Award", "Know Drugs" Ribbon, etc.
I suddenly had this idea of putting all these badges on to my bag.
Because I don't like the plain look of my bag.
I also added the smiley face badge on my pencil box.
And this I think it made my bag look abit crazy.
LOL.
Nevermind, I shall be different from others. (:
Those "Good Progess Award", "Master Reader", "I am a Young Environmentalist/Mathematician/Zoologist/Ornithologist/Marine Biologist", "LPS Abacus Master", "Model Pupil Award", "Know Drugs" Ribbon, etc.
I suddenly had this idea of putting all these badges on to my bag.
Because I don't like the plain look of my bag.
I also added the smiley face badge on my pencil box.
And this I think it made my bag look abit crazy.
LOL.
Nevermind, I shall be different from others. (:
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