JOANNECHIA

Clarifications:

Well, why did I broke up with him?
I don't want to go into too much of the details and bring down his pride.
Just wanna say that I really cannot bring myself to go back to him anymore.

How many times had this happened?
More than enough times, breaking up and then patching back.
Its always happening over and over again.
The problems, will never be solved.

I don't want to be treated like this ever again.
Well, when he's good, he's really good, I can't deny that.
But when he's angry or upset, I can't stand him.

Getting angry over little things and starting quarrels.
Commanding, controlling, scolding, shouting, demanding and all.
Never a day was peaceful without a slight quarrel.

I've tried, giving him chances, forgiving him and all.
But, still, the next time, its still all the same despite he's assurance the previous time that he won't ever do that again.
How can I ever believe him again?

All those name callings, hurtful words and commanding.
I don't deserve that.
I've been called: Stupid, idoit, hopeless, useless, retarded, pu bor and lots more.
Which boyfriend would name his girlfriend using such words?

I've deleted number of friends from facebook just because he doesn't like it.
Lose contacts with lots of friends just because he doesn't like it.
Not talked to certain guys just because he doesn't like it.
And even to the extent of not being able to say "I don't know".

Having to look him in his face when he's talking.
Not looking away even when he paused.
Repeated apologies to him and on twitter as well.
Constant texting all day long.
Reporting whatever I'm doing every few minutes.
No late replys, no rejecting of calls, no kupping phone calls.
No texting one word, no texting two words, no texting without expression.

Its stressful.
Seriously stressful.

And so, here am I now, writing this to let people know how I feel.
I'm not trying to bring his pride down.
Why am I breaking up with him?
No, its not those little things.
Its a matter of basic freedom and respect everyone should have.
No one shall be controlled by anyone in such a way.

I believe, no girl wants or deserves to be treated like that.